THANK YOU EVERYONE!

Doug, we have never met but these past days/week have been extremely emotional for me and my wife. Just reading about what happened and what you are going through brought tears to my wife's eyes. Stay strong because you have this incredible community of really wonderful people who will help you.

I have not been a maggot that long, and probably wouldn't consider myself even close to some of the members her in term of their maggot status, but I have to say the support here is incredible. Even though there is some bickering and stupid fighting that goes on here occasionally, we really are a community and the support that everyone has offered and is offering is absolutely incredible.

Every response, whether emotional support, financial support, informational, and everything else has been incredible and heartfelt. I think Yetiman's advice is the best:

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1) the best revenge is living well

2) this too shall pass

3) we're all with you in spirit dude

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we are all here for you doug,
matt

Good to hear from you man. I agree, take Powstash up on his offer. Please let me know if you ever need to talk. Prayers going out for you.

stay strong. Time heals.

Hang in there brother. It takes a strong heart to forgive and a strong mind to move forward. Keep focused one day at a time, one hour at a time, one foot in front of the other. I pray for you by name daily, Doug.

Keep the fire burning. +++

Doug, it does my heart good to see that you are feeling well enough to post, and to reach out to share some very painful thoughts and times with us. I think you are on your way out of the darkness. Please continue to rely on friends, family and this wonderful community of snow worshippers. You don't have to go through this alone. That is the beauty of it all.

I agree with others that you should take up Powstash on his offer. Getting out into the mountains will do wonders for your soul.

Be good to yourself. And know that peace will come in time.

Doug,

You are simply amazing, and everyone here on TGR is also amazing.

Thru your pain and need to find reason for life, and then reading and talking about all the love, support, fraternity, and goodness by every single person in this community, the interconnection is overwhelming...and amazing...I feel like I have been touched by a sort of divinity, an endearing kindness that I keep coming back to, just so I can feel the warmth well-up in my heart.

Damn, amazing.

Again Doug, If you ever need to get away for a little while and just chill by the beach or take in some adventure in our Sierra Mountains, my house here in Sothern California is all yours, anytime, anyday. Just give me a call (619.318.9599), or just show up and knock on my door, anytime, anyday.

peace,
D.

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Originally Posted by shmoesmith

I'm far from out of the woods...last night I was having thoughts of murder and feeling it just punishment to those individuals that were involved in influencing her to do the the things that she did that drove her to such pain and guilt that she would kill herself.

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The best thing you can do?
Walk away.
And never look back at them.

congrats to doug and the maggots, life will be better, sometime slowly, sometime faster, healing will take time both metal and physical\, but it will get better. Remeber, you always have bacon ;)

Shmoe:

I read your post...and yes thoughts of revenge are not healthful. But, you shouldn't feel guilty about feeling pissed off, whether at people who wronged you or didn't step in. Dealing with anger is the only way to get over it and to get to a place where as Splat suggested, you find forgiveness.

Stay strong and if any legal shit pops up, Buzz can tell you how to contact me.

Hang in there. everything else has pretty much been said. good luck

You are amazing in the fact you're reaching out to everyone, articulating what you feel and leaning on people when you need them. You have everything it takes to pull through this...I'm sorry it's so very hard and I'm sending my thoughts every day.

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Good to hear from you, and especially glad to hear you are dealing with everything life throws at you. Take it one day at a time, it WILL get better. As for your thoughts and feelings, they are normal, do not be ashamed of them, but you are a better person for not acting on them, it just shows you are better than normal. As for anyone who contributed to this whole terrible situation, they now have to live with the knowledge that they contributed directly to it, and will have to live with it the rest of their lives.

If you need a little time on the coast, let me know, we can put you up here in Ventura, CA.

Stay strong.

Doug, like everyone else I am glad to hear from you. You and DW have been on my thoughts every day. I'm sure the light will continue to grow and the darkness will subside. Little by little life will return to livable and enjoyable. I am so sorry you are having to fight this battle. Keep us informed on how you're doing.

Wow, I just saw this. Hang in there - I have several experiences with this myself. Happens more than we are aware of.

Shmoe,

I can't even imagine what you are going through but Yetiman is right, "living well is the best revenge". You are still very young and you can have another life after this one. Put it behind you, get help when needed. You have many more years ahead of you, make the most of them.

Scmoe,

I don't even know what to say other than keep on going on.. I have never been through what you have experienced but from some other crazy things in my life I can say that life will get better.

It really is good to step away and go for a tour and get some fresh air, it clears the mind and soul..(especially get away from that f----ed up inversion you guys have had)

If you can go take a trip and get away from it all. DO IT.. Go somewhere you have always wanted to but for some reason you couldn't go make it happen.

Danny

Doug,

glad to hear you are feeling better.. ive never met u, but u sound strong..

things are really rough now, but in time, you will be able to look back and see that the path you are on, you could have never seen from where you are standing today and everything will be all good.

many vibes ++++

NAY!

Maybe Witherspoon should be outsourced.

Doug,

It's good to see you're feeling better. Know that if there is ever anything you need you have a strong support system here. I can not imagine what you're going through or where to begin in offering anything constructive or comforting. Just know you have more vibes and prayers coming your way than you could possibly know.

Good Luck,
Jay

Doug, I think you have an amazing opportunity to get out, sell the house, pack the car and dog, and see everywhere. I would be willing to bet that through the maggot community, you could do a true soul searching powder mission right now. I would think staying in the house would be impossible, but I don't know your resolve in that matter.
I do know that right now, wherever you want to go, mags will help you with your journey.
Everyone in your life would understand, from family, to work.
Just think...San Diego, Tahoe, S.F, Portland/hood, Bachelor, Seattle, Baker, V.C., whistler, B.C, Montana, Jackson, Colorado, wherever you want to go. Just think about it.
We have your back should you choose to do this.
It is what I would do.
Peace.

"Keep your stick on the ice, were all pulling for you." -Red Green

We are here for you. Keep talking. We are listening.

What rideit said.

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Originally Posted by rideit

Doug, I think you have an amazing opportunity to get out, sell the house, pack the car and dog, and see everywhere. I would be willing to bet that through the maggot community, you could do a true soul searching powder mission right now. I would think staying in the house would be impossible, but I don't know your resolve in that matter.
I do know that right now, wherever you want to go, mags will help you with your journey.
Everyone in your life would understand, from family, to work.
Just think...San Diego, Tahoe, S.F, Portland/hood, Bachelor, Seattle, Baker, V.C., whistler, B.C, Montana, Jackson, Colorado, wherever you want to go. Just think about it.
We have your back should you choose to do this.
It is what I would do.
Peace.

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I just want my life back. I don't want to go out and have some sort of god damn soul search. I don't want to travel. I just want my life back...I WANT MY FUCKING LIFE BACK! I want to be happy again. To have my wife back. To have my best friend back. I don't give a flying fuck about getting out of here or away. I just want life to be normal. I want to be whole again. to be happy. to have a wife that loves me, a career that works, a house, a car, a dog....I don't know. I feel like screaming now.

Everyone is telling me to get away. to leave it all. all I want is to be back to the way it was. I was happy. Sure there was stress in there. The job is hard, the bills need to be paid, but I was happy god damnit. I loved my wife more than life itself. My job wasn't going so hot, but I enjoyed it. I played hard. I loved life. i just want it back god damnit. I just want it back.

I don't know how to make things work anymore. its fucking 5:00 am and I haven't slept in 24 hrs. I'm to the point of trying to drink myself to sleep. I'm drunk and still can't sleep.....I just want it back.

I don't feel like killing myself. I don't feel like there is reason for me to live. I am just here.