I am in no way a mod but I’m fucking bawling my eyes out. A lot of shit in this world just doesn’t fucking matter anymore. I’m in a lot of pain.
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I am in no way a mod but I’m fucking bawling my eyes out. A lot of shit in this world just doesn’t fucking matter anymore. I’m in a lot of pain.
Fuck. Sorry Buzz.Quote:
Originally Posted by Buzzworthy
Vibes and big hugs man.Quote:
Originally Posted by Buzzworthy
Fucking gold, Jerry, gold.Quote:
Originally Posted by JimmyCarter
Aww fuck Buzz - healing vibes sent to you and your family especially your parents
my Condolences, Buzz-
tj
The fuckwit jimmy Carter who called me out can delete his shit. He's the clown who started it.Quote:
Originally Posted by skiJ
Jimmy Carter was on point and funny. You are not.Quote:
Originally Posted by byates1
Very sorry for your loss Buzz, we’re glad you’re here and there for your folks.
Hilarious. I'm rolling on the floor over here. Also I'm glad you are the arbiter of humor here, wasn't quite sure who had been appointed.
It's the padded room who gives a fuck. Congrats on getting fired btw.
Be careful rolling to far, the walls are close;)Quote:
Originally Posted by byates1
Thanks! I was gonna retire voluntarily earlier in the year. Now I got some gravy to go with it. A good and desired outcome.Quote:
Originally Posted by byates1
Yes, however, they are padded.Quote:
Originally Posted by Vt-Freeheel
I think it's time to rotate your avatar with the new leaf.Quote:
Originally Posted by riser4
Lol^
This.Quote:
Originally Posted by BmillsSkier;[emoji[emoji6[emoji640
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Originally Posted by frorider
Bought a lotto ticket. Couldn’t resist. The daydream is worth the price. Somewhere in that dream is a cool million to fund the forum and buy a box fan.Quote:
Originally Posted by heckacali
Sorry for your loss buzzworthy.
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Losing a brother must be a hudge kick in the nuts, especially this time of year. I hope you and your family can cruise together through it with great memories and lean on each other.
My younger brother decided to transition in 2020. Thus my sister after that, but he will always be my brother to me. 2.5 years younger. Yesterday as my parents were talking to him they asked what her name was and he said Brian. He passed away just hours after that.
The inner conflict was over. The pain was gone. The peace ensued.
I’m devastated for my parents.
The good news?
I’ll never take my own life.
Those thoughts are done and not allowed.
I gotta get through this.
I lost my brother 20 years ago. He was autistic and a juvenile diabetic. He lived with my mom all his life (my dad died at 51). Growing up my other brother and I were pretty much on our own while our parents dealt with Marshall. He had no friends outside the family. He would ride his bike for miles or swim a mile at the Jewish Community Center although he was physically weak and awkward. He wound up getting a kidney and pancreas transplant. He had more heart than anyone I've ever met. His foot got infected and they decided to not stop his antirejection meds. He was finally worn out and I could tell he'd had enough of being sick and of not having the kind of normal social life he knew he was missing. His goal in life was to make it to 50. He did, by a couple of weeks. His life was so hard it was hard to be too sad at his passing. I think it was a relief for my mom too--taking care of him was her whole life from the day he was born. And it would have been rough for him if he had outlived her.
I’m sorry you’ve gone through this pain as well.
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Originally Posted by byates1
Got to pay people to hang out with you?:the_fingeQuote:
Originally Posted by byates1
Understandable.:tongue:
It's not about me iits doing good things for the people here. You could care less about everyone here. You did nothing for bbi Mt, did not show, did not help. Weak.
That is odd seeing as how I am in the pictures.
But you keep right on keeping score, it is the only way you have to value your self worth which seems awfully low.
Oh and people who do things for other people don't fucking brag about it.:wink:
Nice job continuing to ruin this thread. Your self worth must be super solid to continue this pettiness.
Bwhahahahahahahahahahahha. Pot! Meet kettle.
So, so sorry Buzz. I lost my only sibling in 2019. She was my older sister and 49 when she threw in the towel. I will never be the same.Quote:
Originally Posted by Buzzworthy
Remember I know where you live and what you drive. Dog shit, meet door handle.Quote:
Originally Posted by Bunion 2020
You are going to rub yourself all over my door handles????:tongue:
I can only imagine that your pathetic attempts at insults are a desperate cry for help. I truly hope you get it, because you are a truly damaged person. Now I'm sure you will come up with some juvenile response, but I won't be reading it. Hopefully everyone else here will put you on ignore as well. I highly recommend it.Quote:
Originally Posted by byates1
Bunion and I have been arguing and bickering for a half decade. It's part of the magic of this wonderful place. Don't get too twisted up, oh that's right you're a wealthy white Californian. Sorry you're offended life must be so difficult high above Tahoe in your mansion.
That’s the spirit.Quote:
Originally Posted by Buzzworthy
Rough shit with your brother/sister.
Suicide is selfish. Yeah we all got shit. But checking out leaves a vacuum and pain for the survivors. Been there. More than I like.
Sometimes you have to live for others.
After a 30 yr gig I got " right sized " in 05 at age 49 which was good cuz I was so done but not at the time, the full re-adjustment probably took about 4 yrs, IBM started paying full pension/ retirement/ full benefits right away so i could afford to never get another real job which is great if you can afford it. But I was just a HW guy, I would think a software guy can find another job fucking up the HW ;)Quote:
Originally Posted by riser4
Hi everyone.
Just want to stop in and say what a great thread this is. The reasons why is a nice long list and I'm not going to blabber all that right now, but maybe for fun we can list them together? Digging into that deep dark hole sucks cock in the worst ways ever. It's so easy to get swallowed by it. Lot's of people I know have just given up and let it eat them, throwing their hands up as if it's impossible.
This past year has been amazing for me, I've also had some self inflicted pain, mostly due to work and taking my job way too seriously. The hole was the pits and even though I was surrounded by a "perfect" life I let it get the best of me one too many times. I had a complete break down a month or so ago, I had no control over my emotions or body for fifteen minutes or more. Usually I can do anything, the biggest being a control freak and always winning. Everything caught up with me, again it was all work induced. I have yelled and screamed at many people in the past few months, that's not me, I'm easy going, but I've been pushed to my limits.
I've followed this thrad cheering for others hoping for the best biggest outcome. Pretty sure I saw it and I also saw the best of TRG.
I'd like to take a second to make note of those cunting up this thrad. Fuck Off. You want to attack O.G., not cool, the guy gives nothing buy positivity and good vibes around here. That's where I got pissed. You are an asshole for shitting on that guy.
I know I have given you my number, if your having a bad time, give me a call, I always answer every call I get (mostly due to work) whether it's in my phone or not. I don't want to toot my horn but I think I'm pretty good and dealing with people. I'm happy to give my number to anyone on this forum. Years of therapy, twelve step programs, and having many people in my orbit of life who deal with drug, alcohol, and mental health problems, well, it makes me a pro. I'm great at listening, I don't judge, and I don't offer advice. Like I said, I've been having a rough time lately myself (work) and I don't always have the time, but I can make it, I turn my phone off early every night cause that's how I roll.
This time of year is the absolute worst! While everyone is being so fucking jolly and happy with the holidays many people are suffering. I get it. With all the mental health platitudes that are given these days it's seems they are forgotten around this time of year when it's easy for everyone to drink and eat away their problems. It's a rough time of year for sure.
End of Rant
Fred:
Nice sentiment. Now make it a 2025 thing to get back to me.
Your best post ever, fastfred. :yourock:
Well said Fred. Or is it fred? Life is always looking for a curve ball to throw at you and the sneaky fucker is never predictable. I've had a doozy of a curveball over the past 3 months and one of the things that has really helped me is accepting that there are things I can control in the situation and there are parts that are wholly out of my control and those parts may drive an outcome I don't want.
Buzz I'm real sorry to hear about your sibling. I'm young enough I shouldn't have to deal with that for a while but can't even begin to imagine the pain and challenges with it.
riser(4?) I believe that no matter the circumstances you'll be able to figure shit out and perhaps even when you turn over a new leaf you'll also be able to turn your avatar right side up too!
Tough time of the year. Skiing that we look forward to can be shit, it is where I am. Days are short, nights are long and loved ones gone are thought of. Hang in there everyone. Take a walk and let the cold the cold wind slap you in the face. Wishing everyone the very best