Every now and then, I hear a song for the first time and everything seems to stop. Goosebumps pop up and you feel like the song was made for you in that moment, right there, especially 'cause you've never heard it before. Well I was shitfaced on Saturday evening after four hours of playing asshole with cheap champagne, surrounded by beautiful women and my friends on our sunny deck in the moutains. I walked inside for some reason (can't remember) and I just got this weird, lonely feeling where everything should feel better than perfect but there's just something missing. I tried to contemplate this feeling, but was a bit too cockeyed, me thinks. Just then, Johnny Cash's rendition of NIN's "Hurt" came on loud, on the house stereo. And everything in my drunken, sunny world just stopped. I called Cletus then and there with some sort of inspiration for a ski flick but in retrospect I think I was merely trying to reason with the moment.
Cheers to Man in Black.
"Hurt"
Written by Trent Reznor
Performed by Johnny Cash
I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar stain
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
What have I become?
My sweetest friend....
Everyone I know goes away in the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt.
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chari
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become?
My sweetest friend...
Everyone I know goes away in the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
