I killed a Kitty and I’m going to hell

**frozenwater** · 04-20-2005, 10:31 AM

I killed a Kitty and I’m going to hell

OR – How I ruined a little girls life

OR – How my daughter now hates me.

Title it what you want, the simple fact is that god long ago quit smiling down on me and I am now cursed to the lower levels of satans realm.

This morning as I was walking to my truck I couldn’t believe how fortunate I was. The river was running full just 100 feet on my left chuckling on it’s way down to the ocean. Tthe air smelled just like it does when you are camping in the middle of the mountains, because hell, I practically am.

flash

‘Thud’ “Daddy what was that!”

flash

I get my daughter in the truck to take her to school. Sure there is a bus stop on the corner, but I like the extra time talking with my girl and it is comforting to see her actually enter the school.

flash

a quick glance in the rearview mirror shows a beautiful black cat contorted into impossible positions and it’s entire body thrashing with a rhythm as old as time. It is dancing with death.

flash

The engine of my truck fires up and I head down the road slowly. There are neighbor kids walking to school and I am always extremely cautions down this stretch of road.

flash

A scream punctuates the air. A little girls heart has just broken and all the anguish of loosing your cherished pet right before your eyes stains the morning.
A girl detaches herself from the group of children waiting for the bus and runs towards my truck. Her pain is now matched by the sobs of my daughter.

flash

Pulling out of my driveway I know it is going to be a great day.

flash

Getting out of my truck slowly, I know that this is going to be a horrible day.

Well, what do you do when you run over the cat that walks a little girl to the bus stop most mornings? I walk her to her house, the cat has stopped it’s dance and now resides in the halls of the dead. The girl’s mother at first shocked demands to know why I killed her cat, then later and calmer asks if there is anything they can do to save it. I walk the mom back to the cat and she is shaken. Fresh blood is pooling, the life literally drained from their little darling. My daughter doesn’t want to go to school, hell I understand – all I want to do is get lost in a bottle. I take her home.

Now at work I can only think about getting right and proper smashed. I can feel the demons closing in around me and now my fate is sealed. Fuck, I don’t even like cats.

**lemon boy** · 04-20-2005, 10:37 AM

ouch. Sorry Froz.

**Buster Highmen** · 04-20-2005, 10:37 AM

There is no hell.
It was an accident. Blame is just another form of guilt and generally useless. If there's something constructive about the situation, find it and work on it.

My heart goes out to all involved.

**Core Shot** · 04-20-2005, 10:38 AM

Man, that is harsh.
On the positive side, it wasnt a neighbor kid or your kid.
We all gotta be careful backing up out of the drive.

She will get over it. eventually.

**Viva** · 04-20-2005, 10:38 AM

Sounds like it was a stupid cat.

**Lane Meyer** · 04-20-2005, 10:40 AM

Sorry man, that sucks. Don't succumb too deeply to the demons, it will only make things worse. Take comfort in the fact that you didn't swerve to kill the cat with your truck, it was an accident. These things, however horrible, happen, and there's nothing anyone can do about it.

Maybe think about going to the petstore/newspaper and looking for kittens....?

**SteepnDeep** · 04-20-2005, 10:40 AM

Definitely sad for the little kids...One less ungrateful, allergy carrying cat is good news though...

Wisconsin is considering a 24x7 open hunting season on feral cats...

**lph** · 04-20-2005, 10:50 AM

Oh man that is rough.

As for you cat haters.....

This was a little girl's pet and it walked her to the damn bus stop every morning, for fuck's sake!

Sorry F. I wish I had something helpful to say, but I don't. You have dealt with the little girl and the mom and there isn't much else to do. I would resist the urge to get lost in a bottle, you aren't facing anything by doing that.

**SquawMan** · 04-20-2005, 10:59 AM

maybe you could buy the little girl another black kitten

they don't cost much and it would be a nice gesture

that's what I'd do

**Cornholio** · 04-20-2005, 11:03 AM

Frz-

My heart, too, goes out to all y'all. When I was 6 or so, my mom did the same thing to my cat. It was incredibly traumatic for me. It didn't take long for me to get over it, though, so you may be in luck.

To this day I remember the whole thing in flashes like you describe. Even at that age I knew it was an accident, although I blamed my mom because we always strive to find cause in the random cruelty of life, and I think it's especially so when you're young. It helped when we had a little funeral (sealed coffin!) and I became convinced that little Gizmo had gone to kitty heaven.

Good luck, mang.

**slim** · 04-20-2005, 11:05 AM

Sad situation. Thus is life. I have nothing else to say.

**jibij** · 04-20-2005, 11:05 AM

I know you're heart's not broken for the cat so much as for your daughter. If your heart wasn't broken, your space in hell would be getting spruced up for you now.

The quickest fix for your little girl's heart is lots of hugs from Mom and Dad (I know you didn't need to be told that one), followed up with a new kitten. I know if it were me, I'd be cussing and spitting all the way to the shelter (under my breath), but it'd probably be the only way I'd be able to wash away the guilt.

**Clack** · 04-20-2005, 11:11 AM

The real guilt lies with masterbaters. It looks like this new pope really is enforcing the strict will of god from day one.

**Core Shot** · 04-20-2005, 11:15 AM

Originally Posted by monster dump.

The real guilt lies with masterbaters. It looks like this new pope really is enforcing the strict will of god from day one.

**meatdrink9** · 04-20-2005, 11:17 AM

That sucks man. Can't be fun at all. But death is a part of life. Try and do something nice for the kid. I like the idea of replacing the kitten. Maybe let your daughter help you pick the kitten out. Make an outing out of it.

And just so you won't be lonely in Hell. Yesterday I was at a client meeting at one of our faith based hospitals. In the lobby there was a statue called "Jesus the Healer" that was created by one of the nuns that serves there. I was quite taken back by the statue of Jesus. So taken back that I decided to snap a photo (thus mocking the nun and Jesus) and will now post it here for laughs.

**Woodsy** · 04-20-2005, 11:20 AM

so all those Catholic priests really did ask
"what would Jesus do?"

**The AD** · 04-20-2005, 11:21 AM

Originally Posted by frozenwater

The girl’s mother at first shocked demands to know why I killed her cat

Not exactly the right time for it, but the answer is another question: "why do you let your cat outside?" If you want a healthy cat that's going to live a long life the best way is to have an indoor only cat. But, rant aside, this sucks, frozen. Seeing a dead pet on the road is sad even if you weren't the one that hit it. I just wish people were more responsible with their pets.

**EPSkis** · 04-20-2005, 11:31 AM

That truly sucks, man...

My gf's dad ran over her 12wk old black lab puppy a while back, so I understand the grief.

Not so much fun - sorry F.

Accidents happen & you can't beat yourself up over it. Have a drink anyways. My son & my little cat Cali are best friends. I know he'd be devastated if anything happened to her, BUT: There are a ton of worthy kitties out there in need of a home & the attention / affection of your little girl...Not a replacement, but a new friend....

**EPSkis** · 04-20-2005, 11:40 AM

Originally Posted by The AD

Not exactly the right time for it, but the answer is another question: "why do you let your cat outside?" If you want a healthy cat that's going to live a long life the best way is to have an indoor only cat. I just wish people were more responsible with their pets.

Here's another way of looking at it - Why would you NOT let your cat outside? I've had 3 cats. Rusty, who lived 14 years. Bud, who is still making his evening rounds of the neighborhood - I got as a kitten in '87. He's still as healthy & as active as any cat. (I left him with my Dad when I moved, as my Dad loves that cat.) My current cat is only 4, but usually ONLY comes inside to eat & lounge for a while, gets his ears & belly scratched, then he's back at the slider, meowing to go out.

My cats get their shots & are perfectly healthy. I wouldn't subject my cats to a life of staring out windows. But maybe that's just me.

edit: Does that make me "irresponsible" too?

**Endlessseason** · 04-20-2005, 11:46 AM

Sorry to hear that, Froz. Reminds me of the time I ran over a cat. All of my kids were in the car at the time. The hind end of the cat had been squashed. Pretty much every bone in half of its body was smashed. It couldn't get off the road and was just writhing in agony. I felt horrible. I turned the car around, got my pistol from under my seat and shot it in the head in front of my kids. Even though I explained to them the logic of putting the poor thing out of its heartbreaking misery, they didn't understand. They've NEVER let me live it down and it was more than 15 years ago...

**lemon boy** · 04-20-2005, 11:46 AM

cats are really bad for your local critters and if one day he goes tribal and becomes actually feral he becomes extremely bad for local(read native) critters as part of a colony.

Sorry, cats absolutely should not be let out to roam.
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Froz, I'm not casting aspersions on you.

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MD9: that's a sweet statue. My wife never believes that is a path to healing, now I have proof that it is.

**The AD** · 04-20-2005, 11:47 AM

Originally Posted by EPSkis

Here's another way of looking at it - Why would you NOT let your cat outside?

Because it could get run over, contract FIV, get eaten by a coyote, etc. Statistically indoor cats lead much longer, more disease free lives.

EDIT: No, I don't think people who let their cats out are irresponsible. I just don't agree with their choice. If you do choose to let your cat wander the neighborhood than you need to be willing to accept the consequences that it could die or go feral.

And there seems to be some uncertaintly here. My read is that this is a neighbor cat, but some people seem to believe this was frozen's cat.

**truth** · 04-20-2005, 11:47 AM

Anyone that lets pets roam outside freely desrves to have thier pet run over by F-250's. The cat was simply the victim ofpoor ownership. That said, cats suck.

If ya feel reealy bad, got the the nearest humane society and adopt a new pussy for the little girl.