About to turn 50 and am too tired to continue

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Originally Posted by Touring_Sedan

In a thread full of folks trying to better themselves and figure shit out you sure like to hear yourself talk.

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Well, this is a mental health forum, so yeah, you're right. What's my diagnosis? How about ICD 10 diagnosis code? F60.81

F60.81 could essentially apply to just about everyone on TGR.

Can you help? Or should I start a new thread?

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Originally Posted by Trackhead

Well, this is a mental health forum, so yeah, you're right. What's my diagnosis? How about ICD 10 diagnosis code? F60.81

F60.81 could essentially apply to just about everyone on TGR.

Can you help? Or should I start a new thread?

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You seem like one of those people who have a fairly high opinion of yourself.

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Originally Posted by Trackhead

Long ago, a medical director, prior to removing a vibrating battery operated device from a rectum, asked the patient "should I take it out, or just change the batteries?"

I'm completely serious. I think I experience a double hernia from trying to hold back laughter.

Thread drift is more fun.

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I agree ( about the thread drift part )

we always learn something new from thread drift

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Originally Posted by Touring_Sedan

You seem like one of those people who have a fairly high opinion of yourself.

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You haven’t met my bride

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Originally Posted by Eldritch Ghast

I dunno why I exhumed this fossilized account.

Well, I do, it's for you, Buzz, because I remember you, but there's nothing actually useful that I can say, and others already said it better.

You know that saying "if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you"?

He got bored.
Fucking abyss. Got bored. Looking into me.
Wandered off into the dark.

Not a bad fellow, actually.

It's not as icy cold or inky black down here as it first looked. Dim, cool, dry. Like a slot canyon on a moonlit night in October.

I sleep better these days. That helps, fwiw.

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Holy shit, David Witherspoon?

indeed

Woah

If Jer pops out of a corner I'm gonna lose my shit.

Stick around, there's a good espresso thread here now:
https://www.tetongravity.com/forums/...so-making-mags

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Originally Posted by Trackhead

Well, this is a mental health forum, so yeah, you're right. What's my diagnosis? How about ICD 10 diagnosis code? F60.81

F60.81 could essentially apply to just about everyone on TGR.

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I'm more of a W56.21XA man myself.

Y93.G2 checking in here

https://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/202...51bd02268f.jpg

I don't know you but I want to help.

This worked for a younger man and I can go with you if need be for support or wingman or whatever.

Because I won in court today the first $500 is on me.

Guy Who Went To Mexico To Kill Himself But Nope’d Out After Doing Hookers And Blow Gives Detailed Timeline Of Events

https://brobible.com/sports/article/...ones-daughter/


I really think this could work and am willing to try it out.
Anybody that wants in can come that has a valid passport.
Add your name and dollar amount you are willing to contribute.
Send picture of passport, pile of cash, sombrero and favorite skis to prove you're serious.

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Originally Posted by Touring_Sedan

In a thread full of folks trying to better themselves and figure shit out you sure like to hear yourself talk.

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Laughter is pretty good medicine. hate is poison. Track made me laugh. or rather, that doctor made me laugh and track shared it.

Or we should all remain super duper serious about trying to not be suicidal. Definitely do not be lighthearted?

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Originally Posted by BmillsSkier

If Jer pops out of a corner I'm gonna lose my shit.

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That should would tear holes in the space-time thingy.

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Originally Posted by leroy jenkins

Laughter is pretty good medicine. hate is poison. Track made me laugh. or rather, that doctor made me laugh and track shared it.

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That was my thought.

In the meantime, I'll just keep posting ICD10 codes of my various mental health conditions. I've got plenty.

is there an icd code for gerbil up ones ass?

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That was my thought.

In the meantime, I'll just keep posting ICD10 codes of my various mental health conditions. I've got plenty.

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Don’t make me get out the wife’s DSM-IV and slap you upside the head with it.

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Originally Posted by stealurface831

is there an icd code for gerbil up ones ass?

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I think that’s a i-CUP.420.69

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Originally Posted by Buzzworthy

Don’t make me get out the wife’s DSM-IV and slap you upside the head with it.

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Old school DSM-IV, bring it on!

S09. 93XA

I don’t know what to say right now. I’m numb. The high highs and low lows are too much and I’m too overwhelmed. The doctor I saw was 100% useless.

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I don’t know what to say right now. I’m numb. The high highs and low lows are too much and I’m too overwhelmed. The doctor I saw was 100% useless.

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Hang in there haus. The lows will end. I Am sorry the doc wasn’t good. I hope you have a chance to find another.

You got a good life w a good partner, kids, and tons of rad ppl that care.

Thx for reaching out. The collective is strong and here mister.

I got all of em. And reading this list I’ve felt this way for years. Nothing is getting better. There’s a temporary lull in these feelings but they don’t ever go away. I don’t want to continue being alive.


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Yeah people care. But I don’t. It’s just constant pain all the time.


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Jeez man. Get yourself in some anti depressemts. Would change things heaps for the better

I’m fucking on them

Well, need to recalibrate. Let's ski the Beav next week

Maybe check into a hospital so you can get some quality medical care.

I’m trying everything I can. I just keep becoming more and more like this. The thought of getting on a chairlift right now is terrifying. My fear of heights has become panic inducing.

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Maybe check into a hospital so you can get some quality medical care.

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I will lose my job. That is also terrifying

I also like shuffling along Nordic xc just chilling. Peaceful

I literally will not help myself. I want to inside but somehow I can’t actually get things to go better. My brain is too fucked up. I don’t know anymore, this isn’t who I used to be or ever wanted. It’s impossible to help yourself when you hate yourself.

Bro are you w your wife now? Obviously a little worried.

Prob need to switch up meds to help correct the feeling of not wanting to be alive anymore. Objectively that's not right and different meds will give you a different path.

Hang in there man. It's going to work out for the better. You'll be ok.

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I will lose my job. That is also terrifying

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Losing a job is terrifying no doubt. You are more valuable than the job.

Have you tried texting 988 yet? They are much better than us jongs. We are all going to stick hear and happy to talk with you too. Just saying that the folks on the end of 988 have a specific skill set.

If on medications already, can you get into them pronto? Or even just a trip to the ER if it is a current emergency.

PM sent. Give me a call. I have some stories that are better told live.


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PM sent. Give me a call. I have some stories that are better told live.


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Solid.

Buzz, I hear you. We hear you. We feel your pain with you.

I know someone who investigates suicides and it’s brutal on the families. Share your pain with your family now while they can still help you. You don’t have to help yourself right now. You need to let your loved ones, friends, random mags, doctors, and crisis experts help you.

Bro, if you find yourself on the brink. Call 911.

I’m on now with 988.

My wife knows I want to die.

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I’m on now with 988.

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Awesome.

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Originally Posted by gaijin

Awesome.

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It’s clear she is working with other people as she asks a question and I answer and then nothing for several minutes. Like everything else in this world, it sucks.