Originally Posted by
mtngirl79
Yep. Every time I resist the urge to smash my face into the wall or jump in front of a moving vehicle I am a victim. Everytime I call a drs office trying to get an appointment. Every time I force myself out of bed even though I know I'm going to fuck something up and become one step closer to losing it I am a victim.
Every time I force myself out to exercise and I am running in the park and some asshole makes a horrible comment about fat ugly people, I am a victim.
You are right though. I shouldn't have taken that money. Any decent person would be completely fixed from it, but for its just one more way I fucked up. I still have most of it and I would like to send it back, but that makes me horrible, too.
I shouldn't post here. I shouldn't be anywhere. I shouldn't even exist.