Re: LIfe Kicks Me in the Nuts Again? Now with Dramatic Conclusion
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Originally posted by The Reverend Floater
Excuse me while this becomes my diary again, but....
Man, I just can't shake it. It's been a month. I'll have several good days in a row, I've even got some quick lovin' one night from a former fuck buddy, I've been at the gym like a madman, I've been keeping evil consumption to a minimum (it's all relative), and I still miss my ex like crazy. I've been having terrible dreams, for shit sakes.
Worse, yet, is that she hasn't called or emailed or anything since we broke up, except for once to tell me that she was taking the bed. This makes me feel like a monster or something. I mean, sure I treated her poorly, but we were best friends. And now it seems like she's going to any length to avoid me.
I tried talking her into giving it another shot shortly after we broke up, but we were drunk and I don't think it sunk in. The worst part about that, by far, is that I don't even know if that's really what I want. I mean, I had some serious qualms about her when I was dating her, now they seem so stupid. But I'll bet if we ever got back together, I'd be miserable again.
Worst part is that I just saw her at the gym, picking up a lady friend of mine. She acted as if everything was just fine. "I haven't talked to you in SO long. What's up?" No shit, lady? Jesus. Anyhow, she declares she's coming over to my house tonight around 5 or so to chat or something.
What am I supposed to say? Tell her I'm still fuct in the head and that I'm miserable? Tell her I'm doing fine so there's no burden on her? Or tell her the flat out truth, which she'll hate to hear because it makes her feel "guilty".
damn dude, i feel like your living my existence about 6 months ahead of me.
i feel for ya, seriously.