tore my acl/mcl/lcl/meniscus... searching for answers
Hi everyone,
First timer here. I'm sad to report that I tore my ACL, MCL, LCL and partial meniscus tear three weeks ago in Aspen. Last run, last day. Skied alone because my flight was canceled and everyone else in my group got out. Pretty cliche, pretty horrible. Wasn't focused and attacked a cat trail head on from a steep. Made a last second turn and my ski got caught, but my body kept moving. Had to ski the rest of the way down and heard another pop and crumbled to the ground. Skied the remainder on one leg.
As I'm sure you all know, it's been a rough ride. Can't stop thinking about what I could've done differently. What I should've done differently. It's a back and forth of shock and disbelief, and acceptance and resolve.
I've been scouring the boards to learn as much as possible. It's crazy how fixating this process is. What's striking is the unfortunate lack of consensus on which graft to use. You read all the literature, but eventually, it all begins to sound the same. Patellar is strongest, but results in kneeling pain and potential tendinitis/arthritis. Hamstring not as strong but less morbidity from the graft site, but you lose 10-15% strength in your hammy. I was hoping some people here could let me know their personal experience so I can maybe make a more informed decision based on my personal situation and wants.
I'm 36. Short at 5'7, but athletic build. Extremely active. Exercise every day and pound my knees in the process... plyometrics, bootcamps, crossfit, skiing, bball, etc. I go pretty hard. And my key concern is getting back to form. Being as competitive as I was before and not losing a step. I've gotten two opinions, one doc says hamstring, the other says patellar. I'm leaning towards hamstring because I'm afraid that the patellar will cause a great deal of knee pain and make it difficult to ski, play tennis and bball. But then I'm afraid that with the hamstring, I won't return to form b/c my hammy will lose so much strength. And most important, I don't want this thing tearing on me again. This decision has been driving me crazy.
Anyhow, sorry to bore you all with this. But these concerns have been plaguing me. And in my constant agony, just wanted to reach out to those that have experienced the same and hear a hopeful and friendly voice on the other side.
Best.