fall depression

things are not doing good.
i've been back home for 1 month now.
i haven't accomplished anything.
i have this ONE class in school that i already failed and that i am still failling miserably. i don't feel like doing it anymore. one class 'till i get a stoopid technician diploma that won'T allow me to do anything.


it has been raining for 3 weeks. i'm going insane.

i look at all my old friends and i am totally disconected, i can't have a conversation anymore. they live in their own little reality, i don't fit in
everything is grey, smelly and dirty.
its dark at 5, no snow.

can't stand it.


i'm going nuts. need to step out of town, too many people per square inch.

i feel like dropping school. working at the shop 'till i have enough money to jet out and ski.

what would you do ?

Shoot the hostage.

when does your class finish? You might as well finish the last class. Then I'd move out west and ski. There are plenty of places where you'd instantly have maggot friends to hang out with.

My recs based on what I heard you saying (writing):


First of all you need to just drop the class now - it's not doing you any good. Cut your losses on that one. You need to move forward without the weight of that dragging you down.

Don't worry about connecting with the friends - it will come. You said you've only been back for a month - that isn't all that much time to get back into the swing of things. How long have you been gone?

If you haven't been getting out - regardless of the rain - get out and do something - ANYTHING.

Change your patterns - set your alarm for getting up early. Get up and go for a walk every morning. Have a cup of coffee at a local shop.

Going to work at a shop might help you feel a sense of accomplishment and purpose. That seems to be what you need right now.

Have patience and don't get down on yourself or your situation. This will all change - everything changes. Not a one of use will be the same person next year that we are today.

Edit: The reason I rec. you drop that class is because it will be YOUR decision. If you stick it out and get the failing grade there is the possibility that you will feel more out of control.

dude_le,
everybody here (on the board) is going insane right now for winter to get here. The closer it gets the worse we want it, and the farther away it seems. Winter will return to Canada, just as it will to TN (and a lot stronger, I guarantee it). Our souls will come back into balance, and all will be well again until the snow melts away in the spring. Then the cycle will repeat itself.

What sort of tech. are you going for? If it fits, apply for SAIT or BCIT. Either Calgary or Vancouver would give you close proximity to the mountains, schedule would be light enough to get lots of skiing in and either place is pretty nice living. Hell, Vancouver is in the mountains and Calgary has mountain views pretty much everywhere. Working in the gray, depressing concrete of downtown is actually bearable when I can see the mountains from my office window and know that they're only 45 minutes away.

Life is actually pretty good out here (Calgary) right now, cost of living can be pricey but still not up there with Montreal.
I read your posts from SA, you need to get your ass back to someplace where you feel like that.:)

its not about the friends, its about city people in general...
its not the snow either. my last ski day was like september 10.
i think i just don't fit in the city anymore. i don't really want to be here...

i've gained 10 lbs and lost ALL my little puny muscles since i'm back in the city....

edit : i will not be a computer technician in the next few years at least, i have to get out of the cities.

Sounds like you need to move to Jackson, Bozeman or some other ski town with 'country folk'. better do it before the malaise gets really bad.

i' moving out for the winter, that was already in the plan. its the next 2 months that are super rough and i really can't stand..